Balancing kids and cleaning 

“Excuse the mess, we are making memories” “What’s wrong with having a clean house?” “Will my kids remember that beds were made and dishes done, or will they remember playing on the floor with their mom” “I can play with my kids and also keep a clean house”  I have never ever seen a man…

Goodbye, little shoes 

We finally found a house to rent! Great news- we get to move again. Actual great news- we will have a yard!! Tonight, I started going through boxes from storage. One of the first ones I opened was the box of baby clothing. The next one was maternity clothing.   I broke down crying, unable…

Gettin crafty

We had a crafty week last week.  We have an amazing library nearby and found a book full of stuffed animal patterns. Kaia picked out a unicorn to make.  She picked out the fabric, buttons and ribbon and then she helped sew it and stuff it. Here’s the finished product! Eden wanted to make a…

And now she is 4

Kaia turned 4 this weekend! I thought about writing a poetic post about watching her grow over the last 4 years.  I thought about writing about how wonderful she is, while listing things I love about her, but it didn’t quite feel right either.  I am still trying to figure out which stories are mine…

It’s just emotions, takin me over

When I was a child, my family was incredibly uncomfortable with emotions. “Suck it up”, “think of something else”, “stop crying”. If I felt anything other than grateful and happy, it’s because I chose to feel those emotions and I should choose better next time. “Choose happy” and “you control what you think about”. I…

I used to be a bully

This is probably my most controversial post yet.   I used to bully my children.  I wanted them to obey.  In the name of Christianity, I punished and yelled and spanked.  I said things like, “you don’t know my kid” and “every family has to do what is right for them” and all the other…